I’m a writer and an adventurer always looking to grow and get the most out of life.
I designed this project as a way to support what I’m up to in 2013. I woke up on New Year’s Day feeling really confronted, overwhelmed and already behind… and it was only the first day of the year! Instead of eating an entire box of Joe Joe’s, I wrote a blog post and analyzed my suffering. Here’s that post (over on my original blog, Love in the Time of Foreclosure) – “Why I will not be striving for perfection in 2013 or how to be flawed and happy.”
Writing that post opened up something in me. It had me realize that I didn’t have to go about my year the same way I always do. In fact, that would just be a sure recipe for disappointment.
What I saw was an opportunity for me to stop allowing fear of failure to get in the way of my dreams.
If failure is not only inevitable, but an important step on the way to success, then why avoid it? It makes NO SENSE. That, folks, is what self-sabotage looks like.
What if, I thought. What if I forced myself to take on one big thing a day that I have been avoiding for fear of failing? If I did THAT, 2013 is sure to be an amazing year.
Take on failing. Yes.
If you don’t like the sound of that, think of it this way… I’m taking on challenges that have a small percentage for success. I’m taking them on in order to LAUNCH MYSELF OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE.
Why would I want to make myself uncomfortable?
Because growth doesn’t happen when you’re sitting back and being comfortable.
And it’s boring.
I am happiest when I’m pushing myself to be bold and unafraid.
That’s what this is about. It’s my structure for the year… a way to make sure I’m not just sitting back and letting life happen to me.
Why would you be interested?
I guess you’ll have to answer that question for yourself.
I’m not doing this for you.
I’m doing it for me. If I cared what you thought, I wouldn’t be doing this in the first place. I’d be doing something much safer. I’d have thought it through better.
Wait. I just lied. I actually do care what you think. But I’m trying not to.
Why? Because I can’t possibly please each and every one of you. I have been an approval-seeking person for most of my life and it’s not a fulfilling way to go about life. Trust me. I doubt I’ll ever be able to stop that automatic desire to want approval, but I can notice it and act in spite of it.
I can remind myself, this is for me.
This is to keep me in action.
This is to get me OUT OF MY HEAD.
This is to push me into taking risks in service of what I’m committed to in life.
This is for the extraordinary life I see possible.
Some of you will think this is awesome.
Some of you will think it’s all a waste of time.
Great. And great. You have opinions. So do I.
What would make me happy?
Glad you asked. If you joined me. Because it’s so much more fun that way. We could serve as inspiration for each other. Living life on the skinny branches. That’s where the “juice” is, as they say.
Now… who am I?
I will allow the requisite 3rd person bio answer that question…
STEPHANIE ALISON WALKER is a published playwright and author. She is a two-time Heideman Award finalist at the Actors Theatre of Louisville for her plays EDWARD CULLEN RUINED MY MOTHER’S LOVE LIFE and AN AVERAGE MAN. Her full-length play AMERICAN HOME was a semi-finalist for the 2010 Princess Grace Award and was the winner of Chicago’s American Blues Theater’s first annual Blue Ink competition in 2011. Stephanie’s personal story about life and love in foreclosure LOVE IN THE TIME OF FORECLOSURE is published as an eBook by Outpost19 and is available at major online booksellers. Stephanie lives in Los Angeles with her husband Bob, their wonderful son Malcolm and Pablo the Pug.